A Measure of Discipline, page 1
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A Measure of Discipline
About the Author
Also by Diane Adams
A Measure of Discipline
Disgusted, I crossed my eyes at the computer screen. I’d been at work less than an hour, but I was already tired of looking at it. I leaned back in my chair and stretched. Life was easier since the university had switched to electronic records, but sometimes I missed the chance to get up and move around that looking for a physical record gave me. Electronic recordkeeping was code for sitting on my ass all day. Except for trips to the john and going to eat, there was little reason for me to ever leave my chair. It was a wonder I didn’t weigh five hundred pounds. I could die in here, and they’d have to take out the windows and use a crane to get me out.
I got up, walked over to the windows that made up my office wall, and looked for a moment. I stared at the reflection cast back at me by the dark tint. Far from five hundred pounds, I was at the opposite end of the scale. I wasn’t scrawny but I was slim, and at five foot ten was rarely the tallest in a room. My shoulders were wide for my build, and I had a great smile. I ran a hand through my short brown hair which I wore spiked slightly in the front and trimmed off my ears and collar. Long had never been a good look for me. I hated my Romanesque nose, but my hazel green eyes were okay, and my facial hair light enough that I never had a five o’clock shadow until closer to eight.
When I realized what I’d been doing, I laughed at myself for spending so much time appraising my looks and shifted my attention to stare through my reflection at the campus I’d worked on my entire adult life. At twenty-eight, it wasn’t as long as I made it sound; though on the gay scale of life, it was getting pretty close to the end of things. I’d gotten my degree here too, but not in Recordkeeping 101. I had been a double major, combining programming and math, my first true love. I glanced around my tiny office. No one looking at it would guess I was a brainiac geek, but I loved numbers. I liked them better than people, to be honest.
I grabbed a package of Reese’s from my drawer and dropped back into my chair. From there I continued to stare out over the campus as I opened the wrapper. Kids rushed around between classes, stopping in shifting huddles to talk before moving on; even from so far away, they looked bright and eager, ready to take on the world. I wondered if any of them knew that life almost never turned out the way they thought it would. I remembered starting at the university with the world as my oyster. What a joke that turned out to be. I never dreamed when I took this crappy office job at nineteen to work my way through school that I’d still be stuck here almost ten years later. I barely supported myself on what I made, and working Saturdays at a part-time gig was the only way to have more in my life than paid rent and something to eat. I was a long way from the dreams that filled my head when I was one of those kids with a backpack slung over a shoulder. I had changed so much since then, I wasn’t sure I recognized myself in my memory of that fresh-faced kid.
Shrugging off my morose thoughts, I took another bite of the candy. I let the milk chocolate and peanut butter soothe away my troubles as I refocused on what I was doing. I was preparing to train a couple students to take over my job. I was into the third day of my two-week notice. The thought made me smile. I might not be that stupid innocent kid anymore, but I still had dreams, and one of them was about to come true. I had landed a programming job and looked forward to a large enough pay increase that I had turned in my notice at both jobs. I would have taken the job even if it had meant a pay cut. I was ready to do anything to get out of the rut I’d dug myself into and get my life back. The idea of programming all day instead of dealing with idiotic records issues was as good as peanut butter. I couldn’t wait.
There was a timid knock on the door, and I shoved the wrapper with the other Reese’s cup back into my drawer. When I’d given my notice, they told me they were going to turn my job into a student position. The thought almost made me laugh, but I smiled and agreed that it was a fine idea. It meant I’d spend my two weeks training a couple of poor suckers to do something that was much harder than anyone outside the position understood. Harder wasn’t the right word; it was more time consuming. It ate up time, sometimes far into my evening. It wasn’t unusual for me to still be at work at six or seven o’clock at night, long after everyone else had gone. I wondered what these kids would think about that; thankfully, that was not my problem. I straightened my tie as I got up and shrugged to settle my sports jacket on my shoulders. I smiled and opened the door.
“Hi!” The greeting was perky, and I blinked. The greeter was a bit shorter than I was, long legs bared by a short blue skirt that flounced just south of her crotch. Her T-shirt stretched tight across the front of her chest and almost managed to meet the waistband of her skirt. A blue headband that matched her skirt caught wavy blonde hair back from her face; big blue eyes stared out at me from a model’s face. She grinned and bounced on her toes. Bounced. She beamed. “I’m Brittany.” Of course she was. I stepped aside and let her in, my hopes for quick instruction quickly dissipating.
Two hours later she took a bathroom break, and I collapsed into my chair. It had been the most trying two hours of my life. Brittany wasn’t stupid, far from it, but on the scale of annoying, she rated about a five thousand on a scale of ten. I was going to kill whoever told her I was gay. I was going to kill them in the most painful way I could imagine. I never understood why people thought that every set of boobs was a gay man’s friend. I rubbed a hand over my face, ate the other peanut butter cup, and texted Adam.
“This sux. Save me.” I sent it in hopes of some comic relief, but he didn’t answer. Ms. Pep returned.
“I’m back!” she singsonged as she came through the door. I groaned to myself and got up to let her take my chair. She flounced over, settled in, and we took up where we’d left off. I showed her how to do the job, and she filled my ears with the latest gossip about Adam Lambert. I detest Adam Lambert.
“Lunch,” I announced at noon with relief. She was done for the day; I had another student to take through the paces that afternoon. I remembered too well coming to the office everyday when I was in school, making my classes fit around the job. Thinking about it made me feel sorry for her. Working your way through school was no picnic. Brittany jumped up out of the chair and smiled widely at me.
“I had fun!” she told me. “This is a great job. Want to eat lunch with me and my friends?” My compassion died off as I suffered an anguished mental image of her with a group of her friends. I barely kept my eyes from reflecting the horror I felt at the thought of being trapped with them. Rah rah rah, holy crap. I managed a smile.
“That’s nice of you, but I don’t think I can today,” I said. My hand closed around the phone in my pocket, and I willed it to ring. It remained silent, of course. My smile felt strained. “I have stuff to do. You did great Brittany. See you tomorrow, right?”
Her smile diminished for a brief second and then resumed its normal 1,000 watts. “Of course I’ll be right here, eight thirty on the dot!” She gave a little wave, grabbed her blue and white backpack from where she’d left it beside the door, and was gone in a whirl of energy that was exhausting. I fell into my chair and stared at the closed door. My head felt like it was stuffed with cotton. If I had to deal with another “Brittany” that afternoon, I’d shoot myself.
I worked through lunch. Training didn’t excuse me from what needed to be done, and as beginners, they were only getting the most basic instruction that day. Everything I had to do was piling up. I hadn’t even opened the mail in my inbox or checked my e-mail. Getting out of here today would be a nightmare. I focused on the fact that I only had seven and a half days to
I buried myself in work and forgot all about the next trainee until I heard the knock on my door. It was a much firmer knock than the previous one, and I found hope that the morning filled with mindless chatter was not about to be repeated.
“Come on in,” I called, intent on finishing up what I was working on. I didn’t look up when I heard the door close.
“Where can I put this?” a male voice asked. I glanced to where he stood, loaded backpack in hand. I forgot what I was doing because my gaydar went crazy and my mouth went dry. “Are you okay?” he asked. His tone suggested that he doubted my level of intelligence, and I realized I was staring at him. Dark blue slacks pressed into a sharp crease belted around a narrow waist. French blue button-down tucked in neatly, the open white collar revealing a strong throat encircled by a gold chain. A small diamond stud in each ear and shaggy dark hair curling over his forehead and collar. Brown eyes surrounded by lush black lashes dancing with intelligence and a smile that killed every thought I had in my head but one: Holy crap, he was hot.
“Yeah, I’m good,” I managed to say. “Just drop it there by the door.” He let the strap of the loaded bag drop from his shoulder into his hand and then to the floor with a thump. He leaned to get a notebook and pen out of the front pocket, and I stared at the way his slacks slid smoothly over his ass. When he turned back to face me, he grinned, and his dancing brown eyes said they knew exactly what I was thinking. My cheeks colored slightly; I was sure he did know what was going on in my head. It certainly wasn’t original.
I stood to let him have my chair. The only way to learn and remember the complexity of working with the records was to do it. He didn’t sit. He stared back at me, his appraisal as frank as mine had been. A smile curled the corner of his mouth, and my heart stuttered. He looked like Able.
Able was my ex-boyfriend’s uncle, and arguably the hottest guy I’d ever known. It wasn’t just his looks. It was his attitude, the way he moved, his approach to life. It was in his awareness and acceptance of himself as a person, something I’d never enjoyed. I was hard on myself, and I never lived up to my own expectations. Whatever it was that made Able so irresistible to me, this young man had in spades. He looked so much like Able it was distracting. They shared the same hair, same eyes, same mouth shape; I was here alone with a young, hopefully single Able. My dick took immediate interest and my face burned.
My reaction surprised me: I don’t blush. It’s been a long time since I was naïve enough to get embarrassed about anything. I have no trouble approaching someone who attracts me and letting him know it. However, in my office alone with a college kid I was supposed to be training was not the place for expressing interest. It could be the place where I was sued for sexual harassment if I wasn’t careful. I was too close to the end to fuck it up now, but God, he was hot.
“Ashton,” he said stepping between the desk and the chair, much too close to me as he held out his hand. He turned the full force of his grin on me. “Don’t say anything; just call me Ash.” I shut my mouth on the comment that my roommate Z’s current set of boobs was an Ashton, and shook his hand instead.
“Nice to meet you. I’m Taylor,” I told him. His hand was warm and his grip firm. My stupid brain immediately translated how that grip would feel wrapped around my cock. My face got even hotter, and Ash looked more amused. He bit his lip and his expression turned considering as his gaze dropped below my waist. He lifted his eyes and met mine.
“I think you need to sit down,” he told me with a firm push to my chest. Caught off balance physically as well as mentally, my knees buckled and I sat down hard in the chair. It rolled back from the desk a bit more. Ash licked his bottom lip, and I caught myself staring at his mouth, bemused. My stunned brain finally caught up with things. Ash was older than I expected. It was rare for them to give upperclassmen the training to do a job like this one. The best jobs went to students they hoped would be around to do them all four years. They weren’t getting more than a year out of Ash. He must have had connections. Connections like that made the idea of messing around with him not just a bad idea, but an extremely bad one. That was my last rational thought before he dropped to his knees in front of me. He paused, looking up at me through a fall of dark curls, his fingers on my belt.
My grip on the armrests of my chair went white-knuckled, but the horrified “No!” that should have sprung from my lips remained unspoken. He opened my belt and the button at the waistband of my pants. He was going to blow me and I was going to let him. I glanced toward the door—I should lock it, but if I got up the moment would be gone and it might not come again. Ash slid the zipper down on my pants. My cock was so hard it pulsed, precum staining my boxers. He leaned forward and nosed the wet spot, breathing my scent. His similarity to Able was so striking that for a second I felt as guilty, as if I were really doing it with him. The feeling wasn’t strong enough to make me stop Ash when he slipped a hand into the fly of my boxers and closed it around my shaft.
I shuddered in reaction to his touch, and he smiled up at me before he returned his attention to my lap. He looked as eager to get my cock out as I was for him to do it. When he pulled it free of my clothing, the air of the office felt cool on my heated flesh, his breath a brand against it. He swiped his tongue over the head, and as he tasted me, the world faded to gray. The unlocked door was forgotten, his student worker status irrelevant. All that mattered was what he was doing to me.
Ash suckled the head of my cock like a lollypop and eased my balls out of my shorts so he could play with them. I sank lower in the chair as he licked up and down the length, paused at the base to nuzzle and lick my balls. My hands unclenched from the chair to sink into his curls, the silky texture slipping through my fingers an added pleasure.
“Suck me,” I urged. The foreplay was nice, but it wasn’t the time or the place for an extended sexual encounter. Ash’s eyes flashed at me, and then he swallowed my cock. I choked back a cry at the unexpected sensation of being encased in the hot moist caress of his mouth, and my dick pushed against the back of his throat. I’ve never been able to deep throat. Just thinking about it made me want to gag, but there was no denying that having it done to me was incredible. He slid his mouth slowly back up my shaft, his cupped tongue teasing the underside as he did. He made a quiet sound of appreciation as he swallowed me again. Heat pooled in my belly in response to the obvious pleasure he took in my cock. I urged him to a quicker pace, and he was more than willing to give me what I wanted. He took my breath away.
“Fuck, you’re good,” I gasped. His eyes gleamed when they met mine again, his grin awkward with my cock stretching his mouth. Ash’s head bobbed back down, doing something creative with his tongue that made me lift off the chair and slam my cock down his throat. He practically purred his approval of my response and began sucking me with a rhythm that promised I wasn’t going to last long.
The office door opened, Ash froze, and my head jerked up. I found myself face-to-face with Adam in all his six foot two, jean-clad glory.
“Hey!” Adam said brightly as he closed the door and started across the office toward me. My fingers still tangled in Ash’s hair, and even though he had stopped moving, he hadn’t taken his mouth off my dick. The desk hid him from the door. If it were anyone else we’d get away with it.
“Hey there,” I said, trying not to sound like I was in the middle of a blow job. I thought I did okay, but Adam paused, surprised I hadn’t gotten up to meet him the way I usually did. He always got a kiss when he came by my job. He studied my disheveled appearance; his gaze took in my flushed face and the absence of my hands. Making them reappear and laying them on the keyboard didn’t stop his knowing grin from splitting his face. He walked over behind me and looked down into my lap.
“And hello to you too,” he said. Amusement colored his voice, and my face flamed for the second time that afternoon. Ash l
“Sorry, dude, didn’t know there was a boyfriend,” Ash told Adam with a shrug. Adam’s hand squeezed my shoulder.
“Not a boyfriend, just someone with sense,” Adam said. I shrugged him off and got myself together enough to stand up and see Ash to the door. He grabbed his backpack and turned his grin on me.
“Not a boyfriend, huh?” he asked, slinging the strap of his backpack over his shoulder. “I’ll see you tomorrow.” I shook my head.
“No boyfriend, but tomorrow you have to work.” He frowned but didn’t protest as I ushered him out the door. When I closed it and turned around, Adam was sitting in my chair, his feet propped on my desk. He held my ruler in one hand and was using it to slap the palm of his other; his eyes gleamed. I felt a familiar tightening in my balls. I knew that look.
“You’ve been a very bad boy today,” he said, getting to his feet. My mouth went dry, and I reached behind me to lock the door. Adam was bigger than me; that’s always been true. But when he decided to loom, he seemed huge, the breadth of his shoulders exaggerated and the difference between our heights a lot more than a mere four inches. He brushed the back of his fingers across my cheek. I stripped off my sports coat, tossed it onto the desk, and reached for my tie. He stilled my fingers. “No need for that,” he said. His voice was quiet but firm. He expected to be obeyed. I didn’t have a problem with that. His long fingers wrapped around my tie, just below the knot he used to pull me to him. When we were chest-to-chest, he leaned down and his lips brushed mine. My eyes slid shut and my lips parted with a sigh.